I found the following channel to be a helpful reminder during these times of chaotic energies and mood swings. There is definitely something going on because so many others are experiencing this current time phase as being more uncomfortable than usual to say the least. As for myself right now I could sleep for weeks, find I easily cry for no apparent reason (mainly to clear out energies), can be immensely irritated with even minor things and, since the last few weeks, have managed to develop the ability to go from full blown rage and anger to a fit of giggles and seeing the humour back to intense anger then giggling again - all within the space of minutes, even though these moods are so far apart on the emotional scale.Haven't really a clue about what is going on there, but it appears to me it means we can choose how we perceive any one situation and have a different experience from it, as nothing is inherently having only one particular meaning or response. All the same I've instinctively felt like withdrawing my energies from others and not putting a label on anything I don't understand when those around me seem to be acting strangely, uncompassionately, outrageously, and just lately, even out of character. Ok, so I just labelled it. Those same situations could just as easily be perceived so differently. My inner state doesn't always match anything that is going on or has gone on around me in recent times. It is just probably just the mind that doesn't fully understand because inner changes and disconnections were no doubt ineveitable after the 9/9/09 portal we passed through followed by the 11/11/11, which continued the separation into the new energies from old energy mass consciousness, so experiences don't have to be logical or comprehensible by the mind.
My mind is nevertheless curious, so i will continue to post anything I feel may be useful and relevant, both for me and anyone else reading. I was just so relieved today to learn that it wasn't only me feeling all these changes. Anyway, the key seems to be to "stay behind the short wall" or in other words just observe rather than act or react, without suppressing any feelings that may come to the surface. I have been doing nothing BUT remaining the observer these days, and have developed more of an ability to stay longer with some of the more uncomfortable emotions, deeply feeling them so that they can be released, and not prolonging their stay by feeding them with more energy or drama, such as judging those feelings, assigning their cause to anything or anyone outside me or discussing it all with others. This has made me a bit more reclusive than usual, as I have no drama or anything interesting to discuss, no energy or motivation to go anywhere to seek distractions, and no joy to share while I'm in this latest void past caring about anything. Hopefully this latest void will not last long, but it feels wrong to try to push against it.
The following channel suggests we try not just valuing the positive or good feeling states alone, but that a new depth of experience results from accepting all of who we are in all of our various moods, without self-judgement. For there are no 'good' and 'bad' moods, just different experiences and perceptions that can be derived from each situation in life, as my naturally flowing 'giggling rage' so clearly indicated to me recently.
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Now this type of quantum change also brings up issues – issues that many of you have been facing for a long time. One of these things you’re going to call a mood or an emotion swing. Any time you go through that type of change so rapidly, the rest of you is trying to catch up, to be part of that change, and part of you can wake up in the morning and feel a bit sad. Or you can wake up in the morning and feel uncomfortable in your own skin. You may feel angry about something and just can’t get it out of your mind. This is just a mood. It is just an internal reaction to the various changes that are going on in your life. It is very natural that you would have reactions because it’s part of you reacting or observing a situation that’s taking place.
Now, so often we see you get into one of these moods and then, to actually make it more intense and also to make it more difficult, you start judging the mood you’re in. You say to yourself, “I’m in a bad mood, but I shouldn’t be because I’m Shaumbra. I’m a lightworker and I shouldn’t be in bad moods. When will I ever get this? When will I ever catch up with all of this and feel peaceful and happy, in a state of bliss?” Well, forget bliss! It’s an artificial state of being.
So you feel that you’re in one of your moods. You may be perhaps even depressed or anxious about something, and then you try to correct the mood. Stop right there. When you find yourself trying to correct your moods and your thoughts and emotions, just stop right there. You’re only going to send yourself into more chaos and confusion and you’re only actually going to dramatize that mood that you’re in.
You have the old thinking, “good mood, bad mood.” It doesn’t work that way in the New Energy. Yes, it does work that way for some of the – what we would call – Old Energy humans that are in your life. You’re going to observe it in them, but for you it’s a bit different. At that point you are trying to correct or alter your thoughts, your moods or your emotions, stop. Take a deep breath, then dive behind the short wall! (laughter) The short wall is the place where you can observe everything, including yourself. The short wall is the neutral safe space where there is no right or wrong; there is no good or evil; there is no positive and negative. It simply is.
As Kuthumi said in our last gathering, it is just an experience and it doesn’t have to be polarized to a “good” or “bad.” In the Old Energy it is a common practice to polarize, because that is how everything was occurring. You'd polarize an energy – let’s say polarize it to “good” ... but in the New Energy, there’s no need to do that.
You’re in a mood, you’re “having one of those days,” you say. But you’re not really having a bad day, you’re only feeling and allowing yourself the expression of the bad part of that day. What you’re not seeing or feeling or allowing to come forth in its united state – not the country, a united state of being – is the good part of the day. And once you recognize that your bad day is just equally a good day; and you recognize that there truly is no bad or good, it is just an expression, what’s taking place in the moment; suddenly you find out that actually there is no good or bad.
Your state of emotion or mood is not neutralized ... in other words, you’re not counterbalancing it so that there is no feeling or emotion ... you’re actually merging them together in the highest state of expression. You’re allowing whatever is at that moment without judging it as a bad day, without judging it as feeling tired or depressed. Because every time there is a feeling of tired, what you’re not noticing is right in there with it, in a unified state, is a feeling of energized. Every time you’re feeling sad – sad about letting go of some things in your life – there is also the unified energy of happy and joyful and free. Every time you judge yourself as being angry, right along side of it, actually integrated and woven perfectly into it, is the energy of being happy, carefree and accepting.
When you stand behind the short wall as you get into one of these mood swings that humans tend to do so often, you realize that you don’t need to infuse that mood swing with the drama. The drama that comes from the judgment of what it is; the drama that comes from the “oh what’s wrong with me? Why am I having a bad day?;” the drama of having to run to a reader or look in the astrology chart to figure out why the gods up above are inflicting this on you. You realize that it is you. You’re just putting a focus on an expression or an aspect of that particular moment. But unified right into that are all of the other expressions.
Go, sit behind the short wall. Observe you in that emotion, in the moment. Observe the sadness. Don’t try to kill it. Don’t try to deny it. Observe it. And as you sit observing the sad you on that particular day, as you relax, get rid of the anxiety, you’ll also be able to start seeing the happy you; the fulfilled you; the innocent you; the stupid you – all of the different aspects – and you’ll realize in that moment that none of them guide or control your life. You will realize that you can choose to express all aspects, no aspects, or just a few aspects of yourself in that moment.
We bring this point up in particular on this day because it is a common practice for metaphysicians to try to focus on – what you would say – good thoughts, happy thoughts. There is this whole movement of mind and thought control that’s only going to get you in trouble. Because once you assign that type of control to your mind, that type of guidance just to your mind, and allow your mind to judge good or bad and to try to squelch or put down the other emotions, you are denying part of yourself. Every time you deny part of yourself, it goes off into another dimension. It exists, it is real, and it will come back to get your attention.
So the important thing is, during the mood swings, take a moment. Do a breath or two or three. Go behind your own short wall and observe the you in the moment, and realize that there are many, many other expressions of that you.
The first thing that it’s going to do is allow you to get over the anxiety in that moment. Allow you to get out of that “Why me? What have I done wrong? What do I need to do to make myself perfect?” In this moment of letting go of the anxiety you’re probably going to have a good laugh at yourself for getting so caught up in something that’s really not you, really not the full you. It’s a very liberating experience and, as I said, some of you could have a difficult time with it because you’re used to feeding off of your own drama. You’re used to having these drama situations and emotions and mood swings and that’s how you’ve been keeping yourself barely alive. You fear that if you stand behind the short wall, it’s going to get real boring. Everything will be neutralized. Everything will be very, very – how to say – very boring. That's not it at all.
As you do this, as you allow yourself to watch you, you’re going to realize that there’s so much more depth and dimension. You don’t need to infuse drama to make your life relevant and exciting. You’ll find a new depth that is very difficult to describe, because it’s not mental, it’s not emotional. It is the full expression of you. Then you’re going to understand what true, personal creativity is. In other words, how you create yourself in every moment. It will give you a total renewal and interest in your own life.
FURTHER READING OR LISTENING:
Internet Radio - Episode 17 Nov 2009 Geoffrey Hoppe channels Adamus St.Germain in a online radio interview. See sidebar to listen to the exact episode at top of this blog.
Adamus encourages us to go beyond drama in our lives. And answers callers questions.
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